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Like it's My Job

It's hard to lose weight. It's also hard to be fat. I'm choosing my hard now. I'm tired of being fat. I'm doing this prep like it's my job. I have notes, I have a schedule. Everything I need to do is going on my work calendar so I stay on track. I've been tracking everything I eat and drink like it's my job. I'm putting everything I put in my mouth on MyFitnessPal. I'm determined that this will be the last time. No detours or pauses.

Tomorrow will be the last day I take Nexium in preparation for my endoscopy next week. This is going to be tough. I can still take Zantac or Pepcid until 2 days before the procedure. Then I have to tough it out.

I had a whole day at home today and I needed it. I watched the women's world cup soccer game final. USA wins again. I got my dresser drawers organized and pretty much took out anything I can't wear anymore. I decided that as I lose, I will get new clothes. I really want to purge everything that's been hanging out waiting for my weight loss. I have 2 exceptions - a power suit that I want to get back into and a cute red dress that I never wore, but would love to get into one day (size 7).

I have been doing great so far with food, but now I need to get better with exercise. I have 2 Yoga DVDs waiting for me on the shelf. Tomorrow after work, I need to open them and do them.

For now, I need to plan my breakfast and lunch for tomorrow and find something for dinner tonight.




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